9/5/10

An interesting thought came to me in the shower this morning (usually I think of what to wear for the day, but today be Sunday! Time to rip out the Ashley Chen apparel):

Death, or dying, is awesome for Christians.

We are constantly fighting in this never ending spiritual war, and every single hurdle or wall that we jump or climb over, we are met with an even higher hurdle and an even bigger wall. We are tempted and tried, and all we can lean on is the fact that God is the ultimate Father in order for us to continue in this rat race we call life. I mean of course we are here for a reason and we have to live out the purpose that He has given to us, but you know what?

Heaven is going to be freaking dank (new lingo that I picked up from the East Coast-ers).

When I was in Mexico, I sometimes would stop singing/worshipping during the sessions that were organized, and just watch other people from the back of the room. Everyone was worshipping in the way that THEY wanted without any fear of judgment. On the days that I watched, all I could think about was the fact that Heaven is going to be a million times better, and I am only experiencing a fraction of God's greatness and power.

I am looking forward to the day when I will not be tempted by the Devil, when I won't be bothered by evil spirits that try to distract me from God.

I am not afraid of death. I welcome it with open arms.

9/1/10

Samved: ashley

i went shopping today

and got new nice shirts

i thought you should know hahah

Samved: i got 3 buttons up

increased my total

by

200%


SAMVED SANGAMESWARA I AM SO PROUD OF YOU. THANK YOU FOR MAKING MY DAY

8/26/10

I think I found the reason why all us first-years gain those gosh darn fifteen pounds.

Today, I ate dinner. I also ate lunch and breakfast. What's the problem, you ask?

I also ate an energy bar, a hi-chew, and a packet of asian snacks.

I also fell asleep in class today, and I am about to fall asleep now.

OKay, now that I have laid out all the facts, it is time for me to correlate them! hooray!!!

Basically, in college, you are either studying, eating, sleeping, or being social. HOWEVER. If you do not want to sleep or eat, AND if you do not want to study and being social makes you feel bad because you SHOULD be studying, what do you do?!

you eat. you eat your damn sorrows away.

or you can blog your sorrows away.

8/19/10

Well, it has been approximately 4 days of college.

Actually, it hasn't even been college! It has been welcome week!!!

I have had a good time:

-meeting new people and then promptly forgetting their names
-playing ridiculous icebreakers
-sweating it out in this freaking heat
-living 24/7 in a public space

As welcome week is winding down, I am winding up (doesn't make sense but I am trying to make a pun here, humor me) for the start of academics! We had our Academic day of welcome week today, and while everyone complained about listening to boring speeches of how awesome humanities and social sciences were, I was already PSYCHed (also another pun, as I will be majoring in psychology) because I was in a freaking lecture hall in the presence of professors who are just SO INCREDIBLY SMART and are ready to impart that knowledge to me!!!! On the downside, I had to spend money to buy textbooks, so boo for that.

I'm sure that I will not be excited about class once it actually starts, but it's ok!!! I don't think I have ever been excited for school because I would be able to learn...

Carnegie Mellon is definitely where I am supposed to be.

8/15/10

It has only been one day on the east coast, and all i can say is that...

IT IS SO HOT. AND HUMID. I MISS CALIFORNIA WEATHER :((

8/13/10

One last day.

One last day!

One last day?

It truly is bittersweet. I don't want to do the whole "I grew up so much, but let me whine about leaving in my blog so other people can sympathize with me and acknowledge my growth as a person, therefore acknowledging me and my existence" thing.

My favorite author, John Green, said in his vlog thing:

"College is a place where you are no longer a child, but you don't have to do the annoying adult stuff, like cleaning your toilet. But this in-between space gives you, for the first time in your life, time, to do things that you want to do."

Essentially, that is what I want: Time, so I can actually take classes that I want to take (and then possibly blow them off for, ohhhh, I don't know, a nap?). I am excited about becoming a faux-adult, but am petrified at the fact that I will no longer be treated like a child. My comfort cotton baby blanket is being ripped away from me to be replaced by polyester. poopie.

I am closing the book on my childhood and turning a new page in another book. (Speaking of books, I just thought of a quote that was from the beginning of a book but i forgot what book it was called, "I am the loser in the game of life." interesting.)

Yay?

Yay.

8/9/10

Bored bored bored.

I am tired, but, since I a lame person and don't want to sleep before 11, I decided to look at the Orientation schedule for CMU next week.

I am FRAKKING SCARED, DUDE!

There are so many things to do, and all these people that I have to meet. This is either going to really suck, or just partially suck. I found myself becoming less social this summer, and while having alone time is a good thing, I'm not sure that I trust myself to be normal and make friends in a whole new environment. eek!

This is the first time I have ever been scared to go to college, and it will probably not be the last. God, grant me courage!