8/26/10

I think I found the reason why all us first-years gain those gosh darn fifteen pounds.

Today, I ate dinner. I also ate lunch and breakfast. What's the problem, you ask?

I also ate an energy bar, a hi-chew, and a packet of asian snacks.

I also fell asleep in class today, and I am about to fall asleep now.

OKay, now that I have laid out all the facts, it is time for me to correlate them! hooray!!!

Basically, in college, you are either studying, eating, sleeping, or being social. HOWEVER. If you do not want to sleep or eat, AND if you do not want to study and being social makes you feel bad because you SHOULD be studying, what do you do?!

you eat. you eat your damn sorrows away.

or you can blog your sorrows away.

8/19/10

Well, it has been approximately 4 days of college.

Actually, it hasn't even been college! It has been welcome week!!!

I have had a good time:

-meeting new people and then promptly forgetting their names
-playing ridiculous icebreakers
-sweating it out in this freaking heat
-living 24/7 in a public space

As welcome week is winding down, I am winding up (doesn't make sense but I am trying to make a pun here, humor me) for the start of academics! We had our Academic day of welcome week today, and while everyone complained about listening to boring speeches of how awesome humanities and social sciences were, I was already PSYCHed (also another pun, as I will be majoring in psychology) because I was in a freaking lecture hall in the presence of professors who are just SO INCREDIBLY SMART and are ready to impart that knowledge to me!!!! On the downside, I had to spend money to buy textbooks, so boo for that.

I'm sure that I will not be excited about class once it actually starts, but it's ok!!! I don't think I have ever been excited for school because I would be able to learn...

Carnegie Mellon is definitely where I am supposed to be.

8/15/10

It has only been one day on the east coast, and all i can say is that...

IT IS SO HOT. AND HUMID. I MISS CALIFORNIA WEATHER :((

8/13/10

One last day.

One last day!

One last day?

It truly is bittersweet. I don't want to do the whole "I grew up so much, but let me whine about leaving in my blog so other people can sympathize with me and acknowledge my growth as a person, therefore acknowledging me and my existence" thing.

My favorite author, John Green, said in his vlog thing:

"College is a place where you are no longer a child, but you don't have to do the annoying adult stuff, like cleaning your toilet. But this in-between space gives you, for the first time in your life, time, to do things that you want to do."

Essentially, that is what I want: Time, so I can actually take classes that I want to take (and then possibly blow them off for, ohhhh, I don't know, a nap?). I am excited about becoming a faux-adult, but am petrified at the fact that I will no longer be treated like a child. My comfort cotton baby blanket is being ripped away from me to be replaced by polyester. poopie.

I am closing the book on my childhood and turning a new page in another book. (Speaking of books, I just thought of a quote that was from the beginning of a book but i forgot what book it was called, "I am the loser in the game of life." interesting.)

Yay?

Yay.

8/9/10

Bored bored bored.

I am tired, but, since I a lame person and don't want to sleep before 11, I decided to look at the Orientation schedule for CMU next week.

I am FRAKKING SCARED, DUDE!

There are so many things to do, and all these people that I have to meet. This is either going to really suck, or just partially suck. I found myself becoming less social this summer, and while having alone time is a good thing, I'm not sure that I trust myself to be normal and make friends in a whole new environment. eek!

This is the first time I have ever been scared to go to college, and it will probably not be the last. God, grant me courage!