Tuesday, January 27, 2009


Hey Leadership kiddos! This post is for you.

I remember when I got into the leadership class, I was still pretty conflicted-with leadership, I would have seven classes in junior year.  I felt pretty ready to drop the class and go on with my life, but, for some reason, I stuck with it.   Throughout the year I felt that I got to know a lot of people, but I knew it was still pretty superficial.  Today's leadership development just showed me how little I know about this whole class, each individual, and myself.  I realized that I was so caught up in my own little world and I was SO sheltered.  It was insane.  I know I didn't cry, but it really broke my heart, knowing that you guys have been through so much more than I had, and yet, I had placed myself at a higher priority than all y'alls.  I love you guys so much, and I know I made the right decision sticking with Leadership 08-09.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

1/24/09 (1/25/09)

Sometimes I feel like the epitome of the word "loser" when I go through experiences and I immediately think, "OMGSH I HAVE to put that in my blog", spend the next two hours planning what I'm going to write, and then, when I get home, not write the blog until midnight, forget what I was going to write about in the first place, and end up thinking that I am already losing enough sleep as it is and have better go to sleep now or suffer the consequences.  Anyways, the point is: I have a good story.  But first, bask in my prowess of procrastination. 

Yesterday was my second (hopefully last) SAT. The first time I took it, I remember entering a room feeling quite naive and insignificant in comparison to those meany seniors with their hooded, single-color sweatshirts, looking as if they were going to shank somebody if he/she with their glares of hate. I don't know, but it was pretty intimidating.  So I know what you're thinking. The January SAT would be the same thing. Ohhh no. Not so, my lovely little blog-reader.  When I got into that room, I felt so white-washed. I was like a twinkie: yellow on the outside, white on the inside.  It was INSANE. The room was filled with those asian fobs that think that reading naruto is for losers because 1) it is for n00bz, 2) why read that crap when you can read, something AUTHENTICALLY JAPANESE (when you aren't japanese because your last name is freaking ching, chen, chao, chu etc.) and 3) it's not fobby enough.  And don't think that it was just for the girls, because there were guys that were EQUALLY ANNOYING! Here is an example (I'm not kidding, you can ask any chang-chiou who took the SATs at prospect):

Proctor: Is everyone done filling out your test ID?
Lame fobby guy who was from Lynbrook and is in concert choir and dares to brag about it: UH NO HEH HEH HEH (what he really means is : I'm so cool because I'm pretending like I can't even fill in numbers correctly but I'm still going to take the SAT and score a 2400 and all of my friends can read in between my stupid laughs and think-ohh what a cool guy since he wears his concert choir sweatshirt and khakis pants that are wayyy too tight for him all the time.)

And, on top of that, one of them GOT ME SICK. great.

Now, I'm not trying to bash on people from lynbrook, or fobby people, or guys who think they're cool when they only look really lame.  While I was doing my SAT, I couldn't help think about what other people thought of me when I entered the room.  Maybe they thought, "WOW what a weird person what was she thinking when she put on a Leadership sweatshirt and MV sweatpants with paint on the butt?? WHAT. A. LOSER."  It's interesting to see how we are all connected in these insignificant ways, but also separated.  It's as if we live in our own little bubble, making strangers obsolete, when, really, they're part of another bubble.  I think I'm rambling a bit, since I kind of forgot my carefully planned outline (as is what usually happens with my blog ideas), so cue anticlimatic ending!!

Oh, btw, happy chinese new year.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009


It has been a little more than 2 weeks since my last post.  How sad. Aren't blogs supposed to be, like, diaries or something, where people post on it religiously and document every single moment of their entire lives? 


Well anyways, it has been super encouraging seeing the number of people that actually look at my blog.  I saw that there have been almost 50! I don't know if some of them read it out of pity for me (ohh look at Ashley isn't she cute, writing her own blog and trying to grow a chimney), or out of pure reverence for my awesome, but whatever.  It's actually kind of weird to see that people care about my ramblings, but, I think its pretty important to make sure that I'm not writing this for an audience of like, 50 (or 3, which would be the actual number of people who read every single one of my posts) but more for an audience, of, well, me.  That way, I won't second guess myself on my lame jokes that is only funny to me and ridiculously lame to others (it makes them laugh because I'm so pathetic, right?).

Sometimes I find myself thinking about good blog topics, like how German is quite possibly the coolest awkward language in the world (with their schliden schnlargen bhargen beer weinerschnitzel oktober fest but the UBER messed up spelling, or how I tried to sneak out but let my mom know and then ended up NOT sneaking out, or how when someone talks about blogs I say, "I have a blog!" but only to be shot down with the phrase, "uh. You only have 2 posts."


Most of the time my inspiration is like that.  

No worries though, I think I'm going to try doing this from now on instead of playing blockes on iminlikewithyou or watching lame videos of indian guys getting beat up by other indian guys (look it up, it's actually pretty funny-search: how can she slap indian).
the night before I do my internship hw or actual hw...


I think I'm going to go play blockles now.

Thursday, January 1, 2009


Happy New Year!

Actually, why do people even care? Honestly, I think that its just another celebration for people to get cheery about. like boxing day. What were those people thinking when they thought of that idea?? I mean, come on, you honestly think you can top a celebration on the day before? decked out with gifts and spending of money? no.

So anyways, I wanted to start off the new year with, hey what do you know, something that fits my new years resolution!! Yay, feeling productive.  I don't think this blog really has a theme or whatever; I think I'm just going to list some of my New Years Resoultions.

Go JOGGING-Every year I list this one.  I think it's because I know that in six months people are going to start looking at my tummy, and I certainly do NOT want them to see flabby lard.  I've also heard of something called a runner's high. Wonder what that is...

Stop Thinking I'm older than I actually am- I think, when I hang out with my 09er buds, I feel that I'm going to college in six months too, so I subconciously think I have college apps to return to when I get home, but instead of college apps, I have College Board. Curse you. 

Devos-I even committed to writing devotions for Snow Retreat, but, after doing that, I realized that um, I haven't even done devos in, like, 2 months.  I think,  at first, it was because I would do them at night before I went to bed, I didn't want my "school knowledge" that I studied to leak out of my brain.  Maybe if I did them right after school.  I heard that statistics show that more information is retained when it is the last thing that is studied before sleeping.  I also heard that you can get cancer from just about anything, and not even a plastic bubble will save you, because some types of plastics leech cancer-inducing toxins.  

Neosporin-This isn't really a new years resolution, but more of a great idea.  If I bring Neosporin with me everywhere, maybe I'll stop getting so many infections from my stupid accidents!  During finals, I got a carpet burn from playing Spoons, and that freaking thing got infected!  Neosporin could have averted that.

So that's all of them for now (more like all that I could remember)! Happy New Year!!